billie is a disabled writer, activist and filmmaker. years of chronic illness and a rare tumor condition have given hir an amazing sense of groundedness, connection and self-advocacy that fuel hir passion to share truth, in all its pain and glory.

the wounds have changed me.
i am so soft with scars.
my skin
breathes and beats stars.

—nayyirah waheed

30 Things About My Invisible Illness You May Not Know


1. The illness I live with is: dissociative identity disorder (DID). this is one of several conditions I live with.
2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: 1997
3. But I had symptoms since: 1974
4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: realizing that my filter through which I experience…

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30 Things About My Invisible Illness You May Not Know

1. The illness I live with is: dissociative identity disorder (DID). this is one of several conditions I live with.
2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: 1997
3. But I had symptoms since: 1974
4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: realizing that my filter through which I experience the world is vastly different than people without DID.
5. Most people assume: that DID is rare. I know many people with DID.
6. The hardest part about mornings are: waking up
7. My favorite medical TV show is: the only medical show I watch is royal pains. its ridiculous.
8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: my calendar alerts
9. The hardest part about nights are: getting everybody to relax
10. Each day I take 20+ pills & vitamins. (No comments, please)
11. Regarding alternative treatments I: am all for them. whatever works!! right now I’m benefiting from chiropractic care.
12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: to connect with reality as it is.
13. Regarding working and career: I work really hard and I rarely get paid.
14. People would be surprised to know: that I’m happier than I’ve ever been in my life.
15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: the abuse that caused my DID.
16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: face my past and heal.
17. The commercials about my illness: there are none. people with DID on television are mostly cast as murderers.
18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: pretending to be normal? not really ha ha ha
19. It was really hard to have to give up: the illusion that my mental health is under my control. the denial that allowed me to survive the trauma that caused my DID.
20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: crocheting. mentoring people living with trauma and DID.
21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: miss my insiders.
22. My illness has taught me: not to judge others who are struggling.
23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is: that I’m just looking for sympathy.
24. But I love it when people: honor the hard work and bravery that helped me survive and heal.
25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is: “no matter what” by t.i.
26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them: there is nothing wrong with you. you are a miracle.
27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: how little society regards people who are sick or crazy.
28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was: listen to me.
29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because: why not?
30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: exposed. hopeful that others with DID will feel validated.

Trauma lives in the deepest parts of our body, our memory, buried in places where light no longer shines, so when it shows up, it’s no wonder we don’t recognize what it is. Trauma shows up in odd ways that we can’t always explain, and it often takes a high level of maturity, compassion, emotional intelligence and experience to be able to recognize what’s happening.

—Deepali Gokhale

she was my best friend.

everyone said I was the problem.

I was too sick to leave.

nobody believed me.

Can we get control of an individual to the point where he will do our bidding against his will and even against fundamental laws of nature such as self preservation?

—CIA Document, Project ARTICHOKE, MORI ID 144686, 1952

trigger warning, domestic abuse
I don’t think tmz should have released the video of Janay Palmer being assaulted. I wouldn’t want a video of me being abused released without my permission.



Aboriginal women ask Stephen Harper: Am I next?

Am I next?

That’s the question aboriginal women are asking Prime Minister Stephen Harper in a new online campaign to renew pressure on his government to call a national inquiry into murdered and missing indigenous women.

Coming on the heels of Harper’s "sociological phenomenon" blunder, the campaign is the brainchild of Holly Jarrett. She’s the cousin of Loretta Saunders, a 26-year-old Inuit student at Saint Mary’s University who was murdered earlier this year. At the time of her death, Saunders was working on her thesis on murdered and missing aboriginal women.

"She had come through a lot of the same kind of struggles that a lot women affected by colonialism and residential school stuff," Jarrett told PressProgress Friday, a day after  launching the Am I Next campaign.

"We wanted to move it forward for her. She was really passionate about telling her story, to stand up and tell the brutal truth," said Jarrett, an Inuit from the Labrador coast who’s now based in Hamilton, Ont.

After organizing one of the largest petitions at calling on the government to launch a public inquiry into hundreds of missing and murdered aboriginal women, Jarrett decided to launch the Am I Next campaign.

It’s inspired by the Inuktitut word ain, a term of endearment for someone you love in her native language.

Here are some of the faces of the viral campaign:

This is what comes to mind when people try to tell me there is no (or less) racism in Canada. Hundreds of aboriginal and First Nations women are missing, abused, and murdered, and our country and GOVERNMENT doesn’t care. It doesn’t. Indigenous women don’t matter to our government and it’s horrifying.  Please click some of the above mentioned links and learn about these women and this campaign. 

(via thetroublewithhumans)


Serena Williams Wins 2014 U.S. Open Title and 18th Grand Slam Title

Serena Williams beat Caroline Wozniacki, 6-3, 6-3, at the 2014 U.S. Open, her 3rd consecutive U.S. Open title and 18th Grand Slam Title. (Photographs from Nike, The Boston Globe and Fox.)

According to The Associated Press:

Williams equaled Chris Evert and Martina Navratilova with 18 major singles titles, the fourth-most in history. Williams also matched Evert’s total of six championships at the U.S. Open and became the first woman to win three in a row since Evert’s four-title run from 1975-78.

WINNING! Congratulations to Serena Williams!  

(via yourpersonalcheerleader)


You are not a burden.

You are not a bother.

You enhance the lives of others.

People smile, not groan, when you text them.

Your voice.

Your presence.

You, matter.

(via kawaiiflowerchild)